shaken, shaking, cracked, crazed

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I need air
cold on my skin
although I shiver
holding my hand or
better holding me up
A red and green neon
sign pops in the crowd
with heavy Latin music
and the stairs move
trying to look steady
taking them one by two
teeth chattering and
fists tightening.
No one is looking at me
but through me as i try
look in their eyes to connect
to stay grounded anywhere.
He looks down at me
with a look I've seen before.
I know he can see that I have transformed, but looking at myself in the mirror I am still there. It's only me.

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