You know what you want

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Well of course I do. I just pretend like I don't, because it is easier that way. But if I have learned anything from the beautifully handsome Marty McFly in Back to the Future *1 and 2* it is that I cannot be scared of rejection. I mean, most of the times I am not. I tell boys that I like them first, and I wear whatever I want, even if they are pink jelly high heels and my mom tells me that she would rather die than be seen in those. But I pretend I don't know what I want because the situation at hand is much bigger than my size seven rosy pink heels, it is about my future career *groans*.
I want to be a writer, I have since I could read. In first grade, I was the best reader in my class, and my teacher would send me home with Junie B Jones books omg chapter books. I was obsessed, and by second grade, I was writing my own stories. But when it came to what I wanted to study in college, I had no idea. I was in between a fashion design major with a marketing minor, or a global studies major. Please do not ask me what a global studies major is, because I still have yet to really know or understand. But honestly, I picked it because I want to help people. I want to help people all around the world. I want to learn about other cultures, and how people live. I want to travel and experience change. But what I really want to do with that, with my experiences, is write about it. And the thing about being a writer, is that I think it is incredibly risky, riskier than being a fashion designer and a global studies whatever, because you have to stick out. My voice has to come out louder than anyone else's voice, and for years, my voice hid. It hid, and I didn't write anything, and I stopped saying what I thought. But now, it came back, and it is just as loud, if not louder, and crazier than before.
So when someone does ask me what I want to be when I 'grow up', maybe I won't name the first career that comes into my head. Maybe I will actually be somebody, do something. Because I know what I want. I want to take a risk.

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